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Pull out a card, fuck it reshuffle the deck
It won’t come back around, the karma’s so indirect
I count a cross, fill the boxes like my life’s picross
But the picture don’t make sense when respect is lost
Expected loss, i paid the cost, my loan is off the books
I could cut and run and be a rotten crook, that’s what i should have done
I’m not too big to fail, i make the same mistakes
Why be a snake if i only ever eat my tail?
They don’t investigate the claims I make,
So the joy i take from them’s not worth debate
Returned to my state of birth, a boy to a man, from snow to the sand
From hotel plans to the back of a hand, i know it too well
And i don’t need to tell it to myself ever again
There’s poison in my pen and there’s venom in my lyrics
I’m becoming numb to the noise and choosing not to hear it

i'm out of time, about to pack it up
I think this train is mine, sayonara
I wrote my last ten lines for this chorus
I ate my last past life, ouroborus

When i die, there’s no guy with a list, no shower of gifts
No gardens of mist, no elliott smiths
But my time on earth’s not rigid, i should be less timid
Flip the script, my lines rewritten
I could live 9 lives in one lifetime if I like
But from the outside you see the highlights only
I’m tired of being ashamed of being lonely
I sold your social capital so you don’t owe me
I unloaded all my debt, i’m bouncing every check
Burdenless as i hit reset
Cause i’m the author til the ink dries
Tell myself some white lies
The foster found a home inside a disguise
Ante up and call with a bluff, i’m all in
i’ll either win or bust, no matter what i’m on the cusp
Forgo the odds, i’m Cooper coming out the black lodge
Saying sayonara bon voyage to my world’s mirage

(cause there's another way, so far from healing
if there's another way, i don't want to see it
what about the pain is misleading?
i'm so far from healing)

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from Validation Matthew Christ, released August 12, 2022

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